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the last journal was MY DAMN FRIEND GOT THAT SHE HAS MY ACCOUNT UNSERNAME AND PASSWORD! anyway here is my past . It started when I was born novmeber 19 1994 everything was nice and happy but thats when things fell apart my dad constly harassed my mom by yelling and hitting her always at night I try to help her but my dad just punched me or slap me everyday I had to watch him kill my momther spirited. Finally my dad moved out of the country leaving me and my mom behind after things were rough my mom worked alot leaving me alone at home. I always had to do chores or work and my grandparents supported us. A few years after everything was good but until the day my uncle and aunty got married you see after the marriage my uncle's mom told him that his dad wasn't his real father but a step father soon things turned worse I was starting 3rd grade at that tiime in pearlridge I was known as the quiet kid always standing back of the line or sitting alone almost no one expected me everyone one of the girls used to make fun of me because I wore tomboy colthing and all the boys picked on me too btu I didn't know why. everydy they used to throw rocks and bags at me and sometimes cut me with pocket knifes. everytime I told on them they would lie to the teacher and get away with it.I had to spend 3 years of being beaten or treaten finally when I graduated my mom was only there and I didn't really have friends so I had no sighatures on my yearbook that made me feel lonley inside and neglected. And my family wanted me to get a's and b's and so they yell at me or hit me they never understood me. Until when I was on summer break my parents divoreced right in front of me I felt sad and scared. until 7th grade when everything changed even somtimes I was picked on but I had friends that made me really happy and my life was etting better my uncle finally forgave his mom and dad and my dad was finally out of my life and now all of my family and me are happy.Even though sometimes we don't always agree with eachother but we love eachother no matter what over thses years I learned alot of things like even if thins feel like everything is lost just remember there is always hope to find happiness.Like your family they always say bad things that make you cry or mad but always remember they are your family even if anyone in your family hurts you in anyway forgive them cause they' re the ones that took care of you and raised you , supported , and loved you even sometimes they can get on you nerves but they do that to proect you. Even if your parents are strict remember they brought you into the world , you represent the love between both of them they shared in their lives and even if your parents are divorced both love you very much and never foret you and respect your grandparents cause they gave birth to your parents without them you would not be here to see what this world can give. Even sometimes you feel hurt or sad and blame on your family think about it what happened before jumping into conclusions. also even though they say you should good grades they mean to work hard so you can be sussesful in life and have a better future and always stick to what you love but work hard in school and try your best. The reason forgiveness is good cause if you don't forgive people that hate will build up inside and eat you up always forgive cause it is pure goodness of your heart that even though this person hurted you, ou forgive them and the hate is gone. Also look around you look at your life think all the people you having a loving father and a wonderful family even sometimes if they pissed you off and think of friends your ture friends will stay be your side for a shoulder to cry on. You have a pretty good life and always be thankful for it cause your not a waste of human life your not perfect your just you a person who is caring inside yet hurting but cry all out the pain then you will feel better and then you will be and talk with your parents everything will work out

I am too lazy to read read so fogive me and my errors.

anyway that banned issue you see my aunty doesn't like that I talk to people on this website or look at artwork cause she thinks there are bad people on this site and that I look at inapropted artwork I tried to explain to her that they are rules that keep us safe but no she told me if I don't get rid of my account by the time she leaves she will block out deviantart where I can't go on it anymore just like my yotube thats why I have to delete some how or get banned soon and I made another account without her watching mwahhahahahahahahahahahah anyway here it is if you want to see any new art

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